Why Is It So Hard to Believe I’m Amazing?
That’s the title of Chapter 3 You’re Already Amazing
But the question, quite honestly keeps dissecting in my mind, creating 3 separate questions…and yet each individual question is multilevel with questions within the big question.
WHY? why would anyone think/say/believe I am…what makes me amazing?
IS IT SO HARD? I mean, is it really something I need to be convinced of, consistently? And is it a question or more of a declaration I’m screaming at the world & God with a slight plea with tear filled eyes of GIVE ME GRACE!
I’M AMAZING? again asking with uncertainty looking for confirmation…
Proverbs 13:10 NLT
“Pride leads to conflict; those who take advice are wise.”
On every page of Chapter 3, Holley has poured out her heart and addresses the heart of women who quite often can be heard muttering words of “self-confidence” hidden under other forms of insecurity such as social status & celebrity. Sometimes that status we strive for is simply asking am I enough.
I think she nailed it.
We all have lies we carry around inside us. Usually they’re so familiar we don’t even pay attention to them…the accusations and lies in our lives come in different ways. Some are completely undeserved…insensitive parents; insecure peers who tear us down to build themselves up; poor choices of our own create lingering lies long after we’ve been forgiven.
Whatever the source, God’s intent remains the same: to replace those lies with truth.
This chapter was hard.
Confession: as I read through the lies my heart began to weep, knowing I have reached a point in my own life that Christ has drawn the line in the sand and those stones cannot be thrown at me, yet others are still in the process of being exchanged with the Truth of Gods Word. I know some things, other things I KNOW.
1 corinthians 8:1 (HCSB) Knowledge inflates with pride, but love builds up. If anyone thinks he knows anything, he does not yet know it as he ought to know it. But if anyone loves God, he is known by Him.
(one version says knowledge Puffeth up… “And if any man think that he knoweth any thing, he knoweth nothing yet as he ought to know”.) Lord help me to never cause myself, to make myself “puffeth”-ed up.
As this year comes to a close the days are seeming longer for me, I’m convinced God is allowing me space & time to do the things He’s asked me to do & has whispered in my ear “you KNOW you’re fully qualified”
I remember a radio show I used to listen to as a kid that would highlight quirky stories or headlines some quite kitschy others were thought-provoking. The gist of every one was to show you that everything has a beginning, middle and end. That we should never take what it looks like and make any assumptions of C’est La Vie…he closed every show with “now you know, the REST of the story”
My life…is so far from where it began, yet it’s nowhere near the end (Jeremiah 29:11) but right here where I am, right there where you are… let’s declare…I AM AMAZING! (side bar: no puffeth)
For further “knowing” especially regarding the freedom from that annoying lie called “ENOUGH” have a conversation with God using these questions which Holley discusses/uncovers regarding the lies we’re so easily trapped by.
1 Corinthians 8 is a great ‘freedom’ scripture regarding freedom from food lies.
1. I have to be perfect? What does a god want you to pursue instead of perfection? (Hebrews 10:14)
2. I need to be more like her? Who do you tend to compare yourself to? What helps you focus on who you are in Christ instead?
3. Won’t being confident make me prideful and selfish? What’s the difference between insecurity and humility?
4. Write a short prayer asking God to continue revealing any lies in your life and to lead you into the truth about who you really are in him.
God wants to remove all those lies we keep recalling, He wants to help us KNOW that we KNOW that we KNOW (1 Corinthians 3) In the words of the late radio show host Paul Harvey, “and now you know the rest of the story, good day”.
We must be willing to keep a lose grip on the futile things in life but keep a firm grasp on whatever could potentially be used to bring change. I am learning to pay attention to what’s in my hand, it might be seed that I am being instructed to sow (lose).
God has this unique way of taking us back to where we started to show us just how far we’ve come. I recently dcomplete the Zumba Gold training at a studio which is located inside the mall where I use to spend my lunch hour crying because I didn’t know where my life was headed. That was almost 12 years ago. I literally stood in that studio and cried PRAISE YOU LORD. I shared that testimony with the owner just to let her know that her studio has a specific purpose.
Talk about a reversal of destiny and the providence of God! Pay attention, He’s talking to you in every day occurrences! (Psalm 126:5)
What are you holding onto? If you have a tight grip on that thing you’ve been trying to get out of your mind, your life and your past, your hand won’t be available when God reaches out to grab it, let alone give you what He has to offer.
Everything about you can & will be used as a seed of change. Maybe you’re carrying some excess weight that’s unnecessary. Whatever you have to lose, it’s up to you to lose it. (John 12:24)